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Saturday, September 09, 2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!
i feel so bad that even though it's your birthday, you still have to work.
just want to let you know that I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!
thanks for everything that you've done for me and sis.
i'm glad you like your present. (:
my maid left today.
and she's not coming back.
cried again. was trying to control it.
but when she walked through the departure gates.
the tears just keep flowing.
i still miss her.
the house just dont feel the same.
feels so empty.
so now i dread going home.
going back to a house that has no one in it.
opening the door and seeing darkness.
and no more eating the food that she cook.
i hate crying!
it makes me feel so helpless and weak.
but i cant control my emotions.
as much as i try not to cry, in the end i still will.
as much as i hold back, it'll still burst out like a train at full speed.
but right now i just want to cry out everything once and for all.
cry until i have no more tears left in me.
cry until i'll never cry again.
sometimes i feel so hopeless.
so much as happened.
my emotions has been on a roller coaster ride in the shape of a sine curve.
and right now, it's at the bottom.
so there's only another direction left to go.-> UP!
aunty susan's house gathering later.
should i go?
but seriously i dont feel like.
just want to stay home and study.
waitaminute, did i just say that?
studyskills really did brainwashed me.
the happiness of your life depends on the quality of your thoughts.
how i wish i can follow it.
jean
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